RANDOM NOTES ON SELF DESTRUCTION

RELEASE
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Walking in a
daydream today...
some unknown motorist,
elusive angel on wheels,
crushed my body,
and released me,
from contamination...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(18/5/2007)
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CAUSE OF DEATH
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Standard procedure...

Autopsy...
split in
the head,
stitch me up...
dump me
in a box,
nail the lid...

Raped,shredded,
disposed...
cause of death,
life...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(19/5/2007)
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diSgUSt(me)
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See,
how slow
and painful
comes salvation...
Like that
stubborn drop
of water
that won't
hit the ground...
Like the noose
around my neck
that won't
let me breathe,
won't release
me either...
Like the tiger
that's ripped
my chest open,
but,won't
eat my heart...
So like life's
bastard son,
I crawl on
without pride...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(19/5/2007)
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NIGHTMARE
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I promised
I'd kiss you,
in a dream...
All I dreamt of,
was you
walking away,
and a slit
in my wrist...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(21/5/2007)
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NIcOtiNe
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Milady Nicotine...
Kisses my lips,
Caresses my lungs...
In my darkest hour,
my only friend...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(21/5/2007)
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CIGARETTE
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Can you see?
See the cigarette...
burning away,
so slow,sadistic...
it has to end
somewhere...
"it's better to burn out
than to fade away"...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(20/5/2007)
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SUICIDE NOTE
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Dark room...
Lonely,bleak...
Solitary shadow
for a friend...
Not even
love talk...
Smoke for food,
it rises up in
vicious blue clouds,
just like the ashes,
ashes of my life...
I'm guilty,and
hammer and
knife in hand,
I punish...

Anirban Kapil Baishya(10/5/2007)