AS I MASTURBATE

The sensation
of being alive,
Coupled by the love at the loins
Burns like a flame
of grace...
that flashes and flickers,
But the shadow- face that it throws at me
Is as unclear as the darkness
and the misty tears of ecstasy...
As painful as pleasure gets or
As pleasurable as the pangs
of lust------
As mystifying as the image behind my eyelids-----
As I masturbate.

Anirban Kapil Baishya(17/5/2003)